“She had always wanted words, she loved them; grew up on them. Words gave her clarity, brought reason, shape.”
The alchemist + doctor wayne = win
A friend of mine has a tumblr and I thoroughly enjoy reading his posts from time to time and figured that this would be a nice way to just share my thoughts and likes with whomever cares to read them and also keep my friends and family, no matter how far they may be, up to date. Here goes nothing…
So today was my first session with Dr. Wayne. Today is the first time I am using tumblr. Today is also the first day I am living after reading the Alchemist. It’s a good day. Begin at the beginning, I went through an experience a few weeks ago that was moderately traumatic. And I have been having a hard time processing it, so I took the advice of my boss, who is wonderful, and scheduled an appointment with Dr. Wayne. I am not going to pretend that a switch went off and BAM I am perfect. It was however helpful to just listen to his opinions and observations and take into account what he said. It is a very difficult thing to listen to someone breaking down the reasons you do the things you do, or why you may feel a certain way. Today, I was informed that I am trying to listen only to my logical side and trying to ignore my emotions. My thought process has been as of yet, get over it, you are ok, you got away, nothing really happened, there are a million people who don’t get away, and in doing so I am not dealing with the fact that what happened did scare me, very much, and although I am lucky enough to be ok, it has changed me a bit. And I think that the thought of changing, in whatever way, whether it be my perception on safety, on the control I assumed I had, on the realization that I am not immune to harm, is the absolute scariest thing of all. But either way, it was interesting to hear these thoughts and a lot of them did make sense to me. If nothing else it was helpful to talk things out with an impartial party without the fear of being judged, or pitied, or anything, just an outside view with a little insight. So there is that, now the highlight of my last few weeks was by far last night. I went down to the bar that I frequent, The Varsity, and I brought a book, The Alchemist. I sat down and started reading at about 8 p.m. and did not put it down until I finished it at around 12 a.m.. Just sitting in the bar, amidst the noise and people this book held my concentration until I had finished reading the very last word. I was sitting on a backless barstool for Pete’s sake! I got goosebumps multiple times reading the book and was brought to tears at the end. It just gave me such a positive outlook on everything in my life that I can’t wait to read it again! So I must give kudos to Turbo for making me read it, I will forever trust his taste in literature from this day on! Read it, everyone, if it doesn’t do anything for you, I apologize, but I just cannot see how it wouldn’t! So this is the beginning I am going to make a very serious attempt at posting something everyday. We shall see how it goes :) <3 <3 <3 avec amour
